Trudging through

The last little week has been very, very hard.  I am afraid to go anywhere new.  Which isn't helpful when everywhere you go is new.  I am frustrated that I have lost all the progress I've made in the last six months.  I think Scott and I decided today that the things I have learned and the medication I take helps me in my normal everyday situations.  But I am not yet able to overcome the extreme anxiety that is involved in taking kids to three new schools and going to a new grocery store and Target.  So Scott will have to go with me until I am familiar with my surroundings.  We did go to church and that was great.  The boys were all happy in their classes (except Brian, who never was anyway).  The RS sisters were very kind.  They hang up a sign in their room that says "no one sits alone."  I liked that thought.  Several people introduced themselves to us and one family invited us over for dinner that night.  They have kids all the same ages as ours, except their oldest is a girl.  But they are a very sweet and easy to be around family and the evening was very enjoyable.

I am excited to be learning about George A Smith at church this year.  He seems like a very kind and selfless person.  Some of the prophets were very preachy and hard to identify with.  I think George A will be a pleasure to study.

I was so happy to see those of you that visited us that day we moved in.  It brings me so much joy to be with you.  It was a little crazy, but I am so grateful for the service you gave me and just the time you took to see me.  Our house is a little more put-together now.  I'm going to try to do a little video tour tomorrow.

Congratulations to all my family that is expecting babies!  I am now at a point where I can be excited for other people's expecations, without feeling the fear and guilt that accompanied each of my own.  They will be such happy cousins!  (Is that too Austin-ish?  I've been reading her lately).

Love you all!

amy